My young heart desires

credit to Bianca Pastor

Being carried on his back was the most precious gift for me I am exactly into reminisce this time, I found myself floating with memories. Chasing good and bad experiences in life. I am 20 years old in this wonderful and challenging world. I believe this simple and humble words of mine will be somewhat interesting in some eyes and some will be touch. I never expect this to happen in my life. I have my family, friends and e-youth around and supporting me. I don’t have boyfriend this time. Haha. I have been into many intimate relationships but then I ended up in a choice that perfectly makes me happy this time. But there is always a part of me that wanting to turn back times when I was a kid and exactly wearing “Bestida” that was I think 8 to 10 years. Why? That time was very perfect; everything was done in perfect place, day and time. That time was the start of everything in my life. The awareness I should say. Let me give you a story on my childish days. Once in my life I was the princess of a dear and loving guy who is very popular in our place. We used to be partners in all crimes; we always go wherever we want and do whatever we want to. He is the chef in our house, he is the gardener, he is the driver, and he is our labandero and even plantsadero of our uniforms. Yes he is our maid if you’re thinking like that this time. He never fails to fulfill those tasks in the house. He wants me to just play and my sister’s work on their school works. Ever since, he was so funny and a certified joker, he simply cracked jokes that makes me laugh so loudly. I attended him whatever his work in the house, I made help him in every way he want me to help him. We often go out, we always went to his friend’s house and he always carry me in his back, He introduces me and telling them that he is so blessed because he has me and my sisters in his life. He always find time to check on me if I’m okay. He is my man of a lifetime. We are so closed that time. I had a crush on him and that I made him the basis of choosing a boyfriend this time. Honestly I never imagine life without him, I never expect that time will come to this point that I will have to do things on my own and decide for myself. He teaches me to hold on even when he is not around. All his words and sayings are always fresh on my mind and heart. He is my prince until I finally finish my walk in this life. I want him to come back and carry me again on his back as we are sharing laughter and tears. just once even in the deepest silence of my dream.